Broken

<p>I wish I had never meet you. If I could go back in time I would never have talked to you. I loved you like no one else and you broke me completely.... I hope you have a nice fucking life. I'll be in your dreams forever, and I hope you never get peace. I can't breath I can't even think straight... you coward! How dare you. I gave you my everything only to be nothing. Thanks for making me feel like a no good waste of space. You never loved me and I wish you would stop lying. I should have kept you away...

Icy

I am numb inside
Can't feel your words like knives
The end is near and I smile with pride
It's broken now beyond repair
What once was mine you took from me... don't want it back you set it free

True Love

I missed it
That laugh so yours
Those eyes I fell in
Drowning in heart and all I can do is reach out
Stop this madness, take my breath Do you understand yet?

The greatest Moment of my life to Date

My son was born July 9th 2011 at 4:56 am. I have never been more happy or in love with any one person in my whole life. I can't believe he is here and he is mine! The most perfect thing in this whole world and I made him, even thought he looks nothing like me lol! I can't believe it still, every time I hear him squeak or look at his long hands or his cute monkey toes, I am in love all over. He is the most amazing thing to ever happen to me....

Taking control

Nothing went how it should today. All I can say is that once my son is here I am taking control of my life. And I will be happy with my Wolf. That is what my life will be my love, my son and me all happy.

Love for Wolf

I miss it, I miss you, I love you.

Unsent letters to Wolf

I don't know if I can do this anymore. I get it now, how you feel, why you can't share. It's scary and overwhelming, I don't know how you did this even for a second. I get why you hounded me all the time, and why you tried to do it for me. I love you, like no one before you, but I am not strong enough or selfless enough to do this, not right now. I hate myself for being this way, and for doing this to us, but I don't know how to live like this...

Alone on the Road

SO I feel really lost and confused again. I understand whats going on is important but I have no one to turn too.... I am really alone in this whole thing once again. I can't even be mad or tell you how I feel because its not my place, this is an issue that is bigger then me, yet I am still effected. My hormones are all over and I feel so rejected and neglected and that makes me feel even worse because its selfish of me, but I can't help being that way sometimes... no one has ever put me first like that. Now its gone and I am where I always have been waiting for the love I so desperately want to receive, I have it too give, and I want to give it, but you just can't be bothered with it right now. Will I ever be not alone on this road?

Love!

So I was sitting around thinking about the man that loves me, and I for all warm feeling inside. He isn't perfect, but his love is. Somehow despite the odds he loves me and I love him back. I worry about him and wish he was here, I miss him and get mad at him and sometimes think he needs to be hit with a stick lol, but I don't know what I would do without him anymore... I don't think I could go back to a life without him. His love is rather addicting I have come to see, and I am better with it and him then without him.

27 week

So I am 27 weeks pregnant now
Having a baby boy
Working
Happy and mostly content with life

update!

So I am 17 weeks pregnant, not with the father, and maybe with a guy from a different state. I will hopefully get this better job and I don't really know how anything will happen. I love Apollo Rayn Ellen Hall, my unborn lil girl!

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