Alone on the Road

SO I feel really lost and confused again. I understand whats going on is important but I have no one to turn too.... I am really alone in this whole thing once again. I can't even be mad or tell you how I feel because its not my place, this is an issue that is bigger then me, yet I am still effected. My hormones are all over and I feel so rejected and neglected and that makes me feel even worse because its selfish of me, but I can't help being that way sometimes... no one has ever put me first like that. Now its gone and I am where I always have been waiting for the love I so desperately want to receive, I have it too give, and I want to give it, but you just can't be bothered with it right now. Will I ever be not alone on this road?